My story isn’t flashy. Maybe you’ll find that boring. I hope you’ll find it relatable. Moreso, I hope you’ll see that God speaks in whispers if only we listen. Like Elijah on the mountain, waiting for the Lord to pass by…”there was a strong and violent wind rending the mountains and crushing rocks before the LORD- but the LORD was not in the wind; after the wind, and earthquake- but the LORD was not in the earthquake; after the earthquake, fire- but the LORD was not in the fire; after the fire, a light silent sound. When he heard this, Elijah hid his face in his cloak.” (1 Kings 19:11-13)
I have always loved writing. From silly short stories as an eight year old to journaling about my adolescence to expressing myself in letters of gratitude to people who have influenced my life – writing is how I enjoy and prefer to express my reflective self. I’ve thought about writing a blog or books or even song lyrics in the past, but I kept thinking, “there are already so many blogs, books and songs written – do I really have anything new to say? What do I know that is worth sharing with others? Actions speak louder than words, right?”
So why am I starting this blog now? Recently I had confirmation that God has given me a charism [gift of grace to be used for the good of others] for writing and evangelization. Although I recognize actions speak louder than words, it has become clear to me Jesus would like me to write – and so I will. Please know I start this blog with great humility. “Teach me Lord” has always been a favorite prayer of mine. I do not claim to know a lot (especially when it comes to grammar), but I would love to share what I have learned about being a disciple of Jesus with you and continue to learn together.
Here’s a bit of my story…
I was baptized into the Catholic church as an infant, attended Catholic school through high school and was taken to mass with my family mostly every Sunday. Sophomore year of high school, Sunday night youth group quickly became the highlight of my week. At fifteen I knew there was more to life than my appearance and image and I craved deeper conversations about things that mattered. I loved talking about God with people my age and how He wanted to be a part of my daily life, not just given an hour on Sundays. I was eagerly Confirmed Catholic as a junior and remember sitting on my bed listening to the Holy Spirit tell me one day I would share my faith with others.
I attended the University of Wisonsin-Madison and quickly got involved with St. Pauls, the Catholic church on campus. There I learned that Jesus is constantly inviting each of us into a relationship with Him and that He will never force His way into our lives. I wanted to know Jesus more and, like any relationship, that would take time. I began spending daily time in prayer, reading Scripture, participating in the Sacraments and allowing myself to become more like the Jesus I was beginning to know. I loved going to mass and began going multiple times a week, joined a weekly Bible study, became friends with fun down-to-earth people who knew Jesus, sang praise and worship songs, attended retreats and formation talks and served others in a variety of ways. My zeal for the Lord grew strong and invaded every aspect of my life.
My husband Peter and I got married at the end of our junior year of college in August of 2004 and have spent the last 15 years learning how to love and serve one another and our six children. God has blessed me tremendously through my family and has taught me so much about who He is and who I am through them. On a daily basis God shows me His love through them and gives me hundreds of opportunities to love them in return.
Through it all, Jesus has been my constant companion. Always with me, always loving me whether I recognized His love and presence or not. Through a childhood filled with love, school and sports, to an adolescence filled with questioning and seeking, to an adulthood striving (sometimes succeeding sometimes failing) to love, Jesus was with me, loving me. And so He is right now, with you and me, loving us no matter what.
One of the most important things God has taught me in all my years of seeking Him is how He sees me so differently than “the world” sees me. In His Eyes is dedicated to helping people become aware of God’s loving Presence in their lives, seeing themselves the way He does, and looking at others through the same lens.
May God anoint and richly bless this journey.